Monday, 06 October 2008
Me and my parents had a talk again today, for the first time in months, maybe six months or more. It went…better. Barely. Ok, basically this is the closest they’ve been so far to accepting me and my decision. They are now acknowledging how difficult it is for me, even if they themselves cannot understand the feelings. Which is definitely a step in the right direction.
In fact Mum just said to me that her main priorities for me, in order, are
- My Happiness
- Being Normal
- Being Successful
Therefore what my Mum is saying in a roundabout way is that she wants me to be happy before anything else. Which can only be a good thing for me.
My Dad has also been more supportive; he said he could understand that I would be unhappy if I stayed how I am, but then again he couldn’t see me being happy if I did go through SRS.
One thing I’ve noticed from both of them is that they think after SRS, I’m not going to ‘pass’. They think it’s going to be obvious that I’m a ‘guy in drag’. Now I would obviously prefer to pass following SRS, but even if I didn’t, I would still go through with it. At the end of the day, your life is yours to live, if others have problems, so be it, at least you are happy with yourself. I think the gender spectrum is often blurred for those people at either end; they might think transvestite=transsexual=drag queen=shemale. But most of you reading will know that that is not the case, it tends to be only those that are in the middle regions of the spectrum that understand it fully.
At some point soon in the future I will tell them exactly what it means to be transsexual, and I’ll let them know that I can still be a very successful woman afterward. Sites like this and this will definitely help me explain my point.
The latter website is aimed at parents of teenagers or younger, but I still think it would be a useful thing for them to see. They always tell me that I’m not feminine at all, and then compare me to Julian Clary. You can’t compare me to an overly camp homosexual! If I was like that everyday I’d be considered gay and that’s really not what I’m going for here! That website does illustrate some traits of transgenderism that are less known, but still as important. I have at least half of those traits and my parents will not be able to deny that.
But anyway, today was a good day. A step forward whichever way you look at it, and I can’t be unhappy about that.