Dreaming…

Monday, 11 February 2008

23:47

Well look, I’ve been able to come on again, isn’t this grand!

My parents took an early night, my Mum because she was tired and my Dad because he has to go to London tomorrow on a business trip. Also my sister is off school tomorrow, but she’s going down town with friends, so there is there remote possibility of dressing time.

I realise how silly this sounds. I can dress anyway I want in day to day life, there’s nothing stopping me, my parents can’t stop me and neither can friends. So why don’t I start dressing as a girl everyday? Why? Well first off I haven’t told some people close to me that would need to know, but apart from that, I’m not sure. I want to do it, but when it actually comes to doing it, I can’t see it at the moment. I can see that happening when I move out and that is the main reason for my desire to fly the nest.

This is where money is an issue, like it always is. It seems like no matter what troubles you have there’s always the issue of money hanging around. I guess I have enough to get me by for the moment. My job pays ok, but I don’t see myself there forever, or at least I don’t want to see myself there forever. I do wish to become something more than just a sales assistant.

Well I’m not sure if I’ve mentioned this before, but they are talking about making more of me. There want me to be a ‘supervisor’ and maybe even the store ‘wine specialist’. That… makes it sound a lot better than it really is. It’s not the going-to-France-and-drinking-wine type specialist, it’s more of the read-an-idiots-guide-to-wine kind of deal. Yeah, but at least it’s a start right?! Would love to be able to make my own wine someday…when I live in California…and when I’m a novel writer or script writer…and when I have a fantastic loving husband…and a view from my room of the San Francisco Bay…

Hmmm, I’m dreaming again. That kind of lifestyle is a long way away, but it could be some kind of target. Something a little more realistic would probably be better; I want to actually reach my life targets!

I think I’ll get to sleep now, and continue that dream.

Night! X

3 Responses to “Dreaming…”

  1. nousha.com Says:

    I am sure YOU CAN do it, hey maybe even in your dreams right?!!! If you need some cute things stop by and we’ll be glad to dress you up, girly, girly😉

  2. Suvi Says:

    Hi
    The only suggestion I can give is to take it slow, one step at a time. Have patience, not that I did have it any more than that though🙂

    I simply started by dressing in a more androgynous way like started to use women’s jeans etc, plucking my brows and then some colorless mascara. Even though it probably wasn’t noticeable to others, it still boosted my own confidence. Doing it one step at a time also gave the people around me some time to adjust to the changes. In my case, I think it was a good choice.

    Best of luck🙂

    — Suvi

  3. makedo Says:

    Are you not planning on university?

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