Archive for December, 2007

Ho Ha, Drunkishness

December 30, 2007

Sunday, 30 December 2007


Me so drunk. Me also so tired. Me go to bed now like. Ho ha.

Night! X



December 29, 2007

Saturday, 29 December 2007


I just opened up my browser and landed on my homepage I then had a quick look down the page, which is frankly unusual for me. I’m not even sure why BBC is my home page, I rarely use it properly. I guess it’s just out of habit now. Anyway today I did have a quick look today and I was most intrigued by the headline “Plant awarded “Beard of the Year”’

Now, you know what I was thinking. There are several things bizarre about this headline. First off, since when was there a ‘Beard of the Year’ competition? Secondly, since when did plants have beards? And thirdly, would a bearded plant actually be eligible for entry into a ‘Beard of the Year’ competition or other facial hair related awards ceremonies designed primarily for humans?! Unfortunately upon clicking the headline, it turned that there’s a guy called Robert Plant (who incidentally is from Led Zeppelin) that was awarded it. And yes it is a real competition.

With further reading I found out of the existence of a “Beard Liberation Front” which amused me a little. Apparently there’s a ‘front’ to stop so-called ‘beardism’ which I didn’t know existed. I actually just read a Wikipedia article about the “Beard Liberation Front” (saaaaad!!) and it turns out that the word ‘beardism’ didn’t even exist before they started fighting it. Now, correct me if I’m wrong but fighting something that technically didn’t exist before hand is a stupid idea. If anything it has raised the profile of beardism, and may increase beardist related attacks (?!).

This is all a little tongue in cheek though as the founder of the BLF is also a spokesman for “Campaign For Real Conkers”. Anyone still taking this guy seriously?! Obviously this isn’t as serious as say, gay and transgender rights, for example. It’s just a bit of fun, I think.

Anyway, reading that easily misinterpreted headline made me look for a few more on the web. I found a short list of some so here’s a few of my faves.







I took/stole all of those from this site. Things like that make me laugh. If these were serious, why did nobody notice? Seriously?

Anyway, it’s getting on again so I’ll leave. Hmm, just thought, I’ve still got pictures to upload. I’ll make sure I do it soon.

Night! X

December 28, 2007

Friday, 28 December 2007


I may or may not decide to keep writing this every day. I’ll have to see how I get on. It may end up me just updating when something interesting happens.

I’m currently just thinking about sprucing up my website a bit, and I’m actually doing something about it as well. As a first step (I don’t know if it’s the best first step!) but I just got so now that immediately makes my page look more, I don’t know, purposeful. It’s a start anyway. I’d love to introduce a few more pages rather than just this blog, it would certainly make me seem more like a real person instead of just this vain creature that wants to tell everyone about what I did today. I’m positive that my development plans for this website do not make an interesting read, so I’ll pretty much just end it there. Just before I go though, watch this, I’m confident that this guy is the best stand up comedian out there. In fact he’s probably the only one I like enough to want to see him live. His name; Ross Noble, his game; nobody really knows. Watch this clip. He’s a regular Randy McRandom.


Night! X

And So That Was Christmas, And What Have We Done?!

December 27, 2007

Thursday, 27 December 2007


And so there was Christmas. It’s over, all the hype is finished, all the sales have started. Here’s everyday life back again.

As you may have guessed from my already down-beat tone, I didn’t have a fantastic Christmas. It was good, but not fantastic. I got a few nice things, books, DVD’s, various pointless incarnations of Homer Simpson, but not the one thing I desired, not even anything close. What, of course, I am talking about is my parents acceptance. I got nothing at all resembling acceptance or even acknowledgement of what I’d opened up to them a month and a half ago.

If anything they were giving me presents to show that they are completely against the idea. New boxers, lots of male clothes, things like that. And there’s my sister sitting next to me getting bras, perfume and make-up. Ok, I guess there was no way of preventing that as far as I can see, but even so, can they not see what this is doing to me?! I knew they wouldn’t give me anything feminine in front of my sister who knows nothing about it, but I thought they’d have at least given me something on the sly!

Ah well, maybe I’m being too optimistic on that front. Of course they’re not going to fully accept the news within two months, but I thought there might have been something. Never mind, it’s not like they’ve not got the time. Given a few years I’m sure they’ll be more accepting.

Anyway, that’s all for tonight. One of my New Years Resolutions will be to get to sleep earlier, and too be honest I can’t see the harm in starting that now!

Night! X

It’s Christmas!

December 24, 2007

Monday, 24 December 2007


Christmas is nearly here and my word has it been busy on the run up. I haven’t had a chance to add to this over the past couple of days simply because I’ve had to stay at work and do a bit of overtime. The reason? I have been sorting through a total of 3,000 turkeys, puddings and the like. It’s been hectic and a lot of hard work, but I tell you what, it feels fantastic knowing that there’s going to be thousands of people that are enjoying their Christmas dinner, thanks, in part, to me. Obviously my part was not quite as large as that of the part of the turkey farmers and lorry drivers, but still it’s good to know. Plus there’s very little to keep you going when you’re sorting through that many things, and having that feeling of accomplishment at the end is what really keeps you focused.

I have now managed to get all presents and cards needed, it’s just a case of wrapping and writing them, and I’ve got a whole day to do that. My plan today is to stay awake until most normal people go to sleep so that I won’t be sleeping right the way through Christmas Day. I am now feeling a bit tired, so I don’t know how I’ll manage it, but I’m sure going out and delivering presents will keep me awake!

Well I don’t have much time before my parents and sister wake up, so I’m going to have to finish it for now and I’m not going to be updating this for a few days due to Christmas of course and other such family events.

So I don’t believe there is anything else to say except; I hope you all have a fantastic Christmas, thank you very much for reading my blog and I will update again in a few days.

Merry Christmas! X

Early Resolutions

December 21, 2007

Friday, 21 December 2007


I’m going to have to be speedy tonight. I need some sleep so I can wake up before the sun sets so I can go up town and do a few last minute buys. It isn’t needed, but it would be better to do it now.

I think if I am going to still be at M&S next year, and I do nights again, it would be a good idea to get the presents sorted before I start. Working all night and sleeping all day leaves little time to actually get out there and buy things!

Ok, well I’ve just started listening to a podcast called “Tips From The Top Floor”. It’s a great little show about Digital Photography that does seem to be informative as well as fun. I have to admit the opening song is a little cheesy and it is very difficult to take it seriously after that, but fortunately you don’t need to take it seriously!

I think that’s definitely one of my new years resolutions for next year. Get out there and take more photos. I have myself a very nice camera now and all I need to do is learn how to use it well. I think this podcasts ‘assignments’ will provide a good reason to get out there and take photos and try new things. In fact I think it would be a great idea if I took photos everyday and posted at least one for my blog. It would certainly make this a bit more interesting as well as help me improve on my photography skills.

Oh ooh I know another good resolution. Probably one of the most common, but still. Learn a foreign language. Or, more specifically, learn Japanese. In fact it was last Christmas that I got a book and CD’s for that, but I’ve barely touched it. I think I’ll have to make sure I do it. Allocate a certain amount of time every day to do it. Also allocate some time for exercise as well. I think just generally speaking I need to be more organised.

Well, there we go, a little early with my resolutions, but at least I have some this year. Oh and of course there is the obvious one. I want to be living full time as a woman before next New Year. In reality I want it to be a lot sooner than that, but I don’t know how easy it’s going to be. Maybe next year I can move out and move on with my life.

Ok, I really need to go and sleep now. Here’s another picture. Sure you’re not getting bored with them yet?!

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Night! X

"Got A Unibrow"

December 20, 2007

Thursday, 20 December 2007


To be honest with you I don’t have a whole lot to share with you this morning. I seem to usually find something to talk about, even if nothing is going on, but tod

ay I just feel like my brain is empty and needs, well, replacing more than anything else.

OK, I’ll make this one an easy one for myself. Here’s two TV ads I like. See if you can get all the lyrics, they’re funny!

And of course, the obligatory photo…

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I’ll write a better one when I’ve got more time and I’ve actually got something to write about. My life does have its slow moments and those moments usually do last weeks, but at least I usually have something to say.

Ah well, I can’t be a constant blog writing machine, I’m only human! Let me sleep you, you, evil blog reading fiend!

You’re still here?! Go! I need to sleep. Geez, no respect for the tired. Seriously I’ve worked hard and everything, I deserve to lie back and sleep.

Ok fine, let me think of something.


Why aren’t there any good Christmas songs or movies these days? The kids of today aren’t going to have films to look back on and think, “Wow I was only a kid when that first came out. I remember that Christmas well,” . I really don’t get why people don’t try to make more. I mean, what a money spinner! If you get the formula just right then it will be played/shown every Christmas and so in roll the pennies! You can retire then and use it as a pension. Except of course you actually get decent money this way.

Well there you go, I hope you’re happy now. My brain scraped around the inside of my skull to find blog worthy substance. It didn’t find any but at least I’ve written something!

Night! X

A Creative Phase

December 19, 2007

Wednesday, 19 December 2007


I’m going to have to keep it short today as I’ve been trying, and failing to keep up with emails and messages, so now my parents and sister are up and I need to get this finished quickly so they won’t see the light on in my room and come in.

What to say? There’s a week left until Christmas. Less than that now actually. I feel ok about it. I’ve got presents for everyone I was planning on getting presents for so I’m happy about that. It’s just a matter of wrapping them and giving them, and actually in some cases it’s also waiting for them to be delivered. It’ll be just my luck that it gets delivered after Christmas, but hey, at least it wouldn’t be my fault!

Oh yes, at work today I had a sudden creative thought for a song that I should write. I won’t tell you so that I can write it and nobody will copy, but if I do get it finished, and I feel it’s worth sharing, I may show you.

I have been fairly creative recently. My TG story is ongoing, whenever I get the time. I’ve been thinking about photographs I’d love to take and set up. I have to admit that I prefer the ‘natural’ shot though. One that’s taken without anyone realising there’s a camera, and that’s not in the dodgy ‘hiding in the bushes’ way. I just mean taking it in the street and things like that.

I’ve also been thinking about writing a piece of music. Ok, so I’ve not actually done anything more than thought about it, but I know what it would sound like, and I know how I would use it as well. And these lyrics I was thinking of today in my head were actually for a completely different song, but I just like throwing ideas around in my head, one day I might come up with some extraordinary.

Ok I better stop for now, I want to get up early and go to town. Even though I said I had all the Christmas presents I need to get for friends and family, I don’t actually have my sister’s birthday present which is situated right after the backend of the Christmas period on January 5th. Damn her for getting double presents at this time, but at least then I don’t have to get her anything for the rest of the year!

Yes, here we go then. Another picture. You may well be disappointed with this one. I figured that I’d not uploaded the seemingly compulsory ‘take a dodgy photo of myself in the mirror’ photo that all people of the transgender spectrum seem to have. So here we go!

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Night! X

All I Want For Christmas Is…

December 18, 2007

Tuesday, 18 December 2007


Slade playing on the radio (probably a British thing).

Frost forming on the ground outside.

Family’s gifts hiding in my closet.

Tinsel on the end of my bed.

It must be nearly Christmas.

I haven’t really spoken about it specifically yet, seen as most people know it’s happening. But now I just want to let you know.

My parents asked me what I want for Christmas a few weeks ago. I hadn’t really thought about it and I said I didn’t know. Since then I’ve thought of things like, camera accessories, a DVD here, a CD there, but to be genuinely honest there is nothing more I want for Christmas than my parents acceptance, for me being myself. Even just something feminine that would show they are open to it; that would probably be the best present I’ve ever had. Seriously, I would rather they spend nothing on me at all this Christmas, and just accept me for who I am instead. It could work out as a very cheap Christmas for them if they are! I think they know that this is what I want, but I really don’t see them doing anything. In fact, I think that if I never raised this up again, they would never ask me anything or say anything and they’d just pretend it all disappeared.

Obviously that’s not going to happen. Everyday I get more confident, and it would make no sense to just ignore these ever increasing feelings. My parents told me that not all people find a partner and live their lives alone. I understand that, yes, but that’s not what I want at all. I want a guy in my life, I want to be married and everything!

Anyway, I’ve been over this countless times before so I won’t go on.

I will keep this one short and get back to my story. And of course, leave you with another picture!

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Night! X

A Story Snippet

December 17, 2007

Monday, 17 December 2007


Well I nearly neglected this diary today. Yesterday morning I didn’t feel awake enough to give you good entry, plus my time was limited as my parents were in the process of getting up when I got home. Then today I was just typing up some of my story and I heard Dad outside the door, going to the toilet. (He was heading for the toilet, he wasn’t actually doing it outside my door!). Anyway, I had to turn off my laptop quickly and pretend I was getting ready for bed. Then I decided that instead of actually going to bed, I could sit in my bed with my laptop and write this. So, guess what? I did!

Yesterday I had a dilemma which I wanted to share with you yesterday morning, but as I just said, I didn’t feel like it in the end. The dilemma was this;

Sunday Night had been organised as a Christmas get-together for work.

Saturday Night I got a text off my friend saying that a surprise party for a friend is going to be on Sunday Night. (I’m all for surprise parties, but I thought it was the birthday person that was meant to be surprised, not the guests from getting the invite one night before!)

I replied saying I was going to the Christmas thing for work.

I also text someone from work asking when and where they were meeting.

My friend replied saying it was just him going to the surprise thing, which made me feel guilty.

I told him I’d see what I could do.

I waited for a reply of my work friend. (Who I’d never text before so it may have been a wrong number!)

…and waited…

…and waited…

…and finally realised he wasn’t going to reply.

By this time it was too late to go to the birthday thing.

I then thought, screw it.

A glimmer of social life, dramatically snatched from my grasp at the last minute!

Well I’ll be honest, I probably could have gone to at least one of them if I’d really have been into the idea, but I figured that staying in, writing and chatting online sounded a lot nicer.

Well here, let me give you an expert from my TG fiction I’m writing. If you’re not into it then just skip down to where it says “Why on earth am I reading this blog?”.

* * *

“You’re cute Ricky, I’ll give you that!”

I blushed like crazy, I’d never really been complimented before and this one took me completely by surprise.

“I wish you could come into our dorm tonight…”

“Yeh, would be fun…” I started.

“Wait, I think we might be able to actually, let me talk to the other girls…”

“I don’t think…”

“Don’t worry Rick, I’ll do the talking,”

She grabbed my hand and ran upstairs with me following close behind. By the time we reached her door I was out of breath, but she looked like she could run it at least another ten times without breaking a sweat. She quickly looked both ways down the corridor, presumably checking for Miss Easton or other teachers. When she’d felt she’d checked enough times she tightened her grip on my hand and dragged me into her room.

* * *

“Why on earth am I reading this blog?”

There we go! I know that wasn’t much, but that’s all your getting. I didn’t want to give away too much of course, and also I didn’t want to bore those that would bore. Basically it was just showing my writing style and a tiny bit of the plot.

Right, I’ll finish for now. Here’s another new pic! Not my best, but something I’ve not worn before!

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Night! X