Honey, Here is hoping you day goes well.

Sweetheart, before running off and getting ready for Thursday, I think I may have a solution to some of the dilemma that you have mentioned in this post on the blog. Some of this I will save for another correspondence, but it did dawn on me that there is a way of solving the problem[s]. A while back I had said in an email where I was when I started the transition and that it was a way to be myself in a chosen area with a certain ‘cushion’ bet where I lived and those in the family. Well something clicked here about how this could be adopted to what is going on in your case.

Honey, should You see this, give me a call right after and reverse the charges so to speak and I will go into detail. It is amazing that the mind here did not come up with something like this before, but this is what happens when one is preoccupied with those twice weekly trips to the doctor to make sure the ticker is in good shape. However, this just came to me all of a sudden…usually when they do, they have a habit of working to beyond the best case and logical extreme.

Ella, Have a Great Day and will catch up after Thursday or maybe sooner, dep on what gets done around here before then.

Til Later and Love Always!!

Randi

Honey this is just to followup on a couple other postings here…and to also to help….

Sweets, while yours truly’s transition to being fulltime has not been perfect, in fact far from it…I do want to pass on here a few things that I have learned and still in the process of learning and dealing with [and stop me if this looks familiar but in some way it bears a little repeating]:

- Living the double life is more or less something which sublimates what you want to do in favor of others. While life in itself is a longeterm game of compromise in order to keep the peace, there is a difference between that and not being able to live one’s life as they choose. So at some point one must be able to put their life first as long as that does not cause any harm to others.

-Getting the SRS or living fulltime without the benefit of the SRS does not change who you are inside. This is more a way of insuring that the outside matches who the person really is, but this does not detract from the mind or the emotional makeup of the person. Put another way, You will always be the same person that is a part of the family even though to others the packaging is now more confortable.

-Ask those who want you to still stay ‘male’ exactly what is the overall benefit to doing so? Plus EXACTLY what is wrong with what you are doing? In comparisson to choices that are made by others [and space forbids posting the entire list, but there are so many negative things that one can do which oddly enough the western world considers to be acceptable] there is not one [pardon the language here] goddamned thing wrong with getting the SRS or going fulltime. Those of us who do this and mainstream the process….guess what: we work, we shop, we teach, we live, we even have families and are no less an employee, a customer, a teacher or professor, a parent as a result. While there are those who portray a negative image, that is not where You are headed and there should be some level of respect for the fact that You want to do this the right way.

Honey, from here also I want to make a little proposition: whatever help you need in any of this, just ask. Just write, just call and we’ll find a way to a solution. If You wonder why I am saying this, well it really is the culmination of all those letter, all of the other communiques, etc. Ella I do Love You Very Much and to be honest I want to help You succeed in getting from Point A to Point B [and I am going to make sure my doctors keep me around long enough to do this *S*].

Sweetheart, You know that I am sincere in this…and you have seen the visual representations, etc . Yours truly is real and what was said above and in other ways You can hold me to indefinetely. And if you want to talk about this at any time, You know where to find me and I’ll stop whatever else is going on to focus in. Again that You can take this one to the bank.

Honey, I need to get back to getting ready for that little thing on Thursday morning. In some wy, I will try to post somewhere what the results were….and if all goes well…that little surprise this weekend at YouTube.

Til later on and Love Always!!!

Randi

Honey, You are special….please do not let anyone else tell you different!!! Also you really do mean a great deal here Without trying to say this as a line or anything to that effect, I ran across a song by Yes from their album Tormato that is a little better at saying what is on the mind than I can through my own words [much like the quotes from Renaissance, The Moody Blues and 'Field of Dreams']:

Contained in everything I do
There’s a love, I feel for you
Proclaimed in everything I write
You’re the light

Displayed in all the things I see
There’s a love you show to me
Portrayed in all the things you say
You’re the day
Leading the way
Onward through the night
Onward through the night
Onward through the night of my life

- Chris Squire

Sweetheart, I have to run here and may not be on the net for a couple days due to an intrussion in the routine that I have mentioned in other corners. Ella, Please remember that You are a special person, never let that spark go away or go out. It is what will carry you not just through now but through all of your life…the SRS and beyond!!!

Til later on and Love Always!!!

Randi

Ahhhhh you’re 21!
Kool!

You’re on to the scary part of stuff – good luck!

tata

Keep some faith in you.

Best of luck dear…